One day I read a quote and it said, “Don’t pray for patience because god will put you in situations where you have to be patient.” I didn’t know what that meant until last year I decided to participate in “One Little Word” and I picked GROWTH and boy was I put in situations where I had to grow. Being placed in these situations allowed me to discover who I am as a person and as a woman. See when you’re in a relationship you can lose sight of who you are as an individual, what makes it even harder is when you never got the chance to find out who you were before you became a couple. Some people subscribe to the belief that a couple should grow together and for me that means they should be growing as a couple. When you’re in a relationship you should have semblance of who you are as a person and where you want to be in the future.
My growth was stunted when I was 7. I won’t go into the gritty details at this moment but know that I sought help to come to this conclusion. When I was told this it made things more clear. What happened to me caused me to no longer have the ability to experiment with who I was, what I wanted to be, and how to develop the woman I was destined to be; because at 7 I essentially became a woman. Now for the first time I am actually coming to peace with all of hurt and pain that I have been through. Learning who I am, what I like, what I don’t like, what I want to do, what I don’t want to do, and what my limits are. Pushing my boundaries and stepping outside of my comfort zone are things that I have accomplished regularly and I am not stopping.